[	Current Location	|	my room	]
[	mood	|	blah	]
[	music	|	all hail the heartbreaker- spill canvas<3	]

k i actually have time tonight to just relaxx for once.ok so themost recent exciting thing thats happened was california with the band over april vaca. it was absolutely amazingg. i miss it. ahh and this year has gone by so unbelievably fast. its crazy. and i cant wait till summer. im still doing softball for me last year i think. umm blah i dont feel like writing in here i changed my mind. but yay ash comes home from qu friday for the summer, and my parents are away in aruba this week. and my nana lives with us now since a few months ago, she had a stroke. shes getting better. thank god. =]

hm lotss & lots has happened since the last time i wrote in this thingy. and i decided to now because im extremely bored. ok well lets see.. december, was my birthday.. not anything too great, january.. ooo oo emily emily emily came! it was really great seeing her.. it was completely awesome. she stayed at my house for new years eve. we had lots of funn and i miss her soo much but i'll get to see her this summer. hm and then winter ball with james. yea i had a fling with him. well he was really in love with me. like really really. im not sure if he still likes me and we only went out for like a week but i decided it was best to be just friends. but he didnt take that too well. but o well. and that was during bball season, my last game was last night and we all went out to applebees again. im happy and sad that the seasons over. it took up lots of time so im kind of happy its over. but i the girls are so great. ill miss team nights and our after game nights at applebees. i did really good this year. but my dad made me go to varsity practice this morning when i wanted to sleeppppp. they have play offs still. hmm lets see what else.. oh a few weeks ago my nana had a stroke. shes at a rehab hospital now. at first she couldnt talk or walk and it was really sad. but now shes doing physical therapy and she can walk now and shes starting to talk a little bit, but its hard for her. its so sad seeing her like this. but im so glad shes getting better. and then she's gonna come live with us. i love her so much.ok umm what else what else. oh oh ! californiaaa! saaweeettt. yea 53 days. i am so unbelievably excited. april vaca with all my band geeks. how awesome is that. ahhhhh im so excited. fun fun fun cant waitt...hm today was ashleys birthday. we went to marchettis and after we had cake yum. ahhh and im really bored and tired right now. and i have to do a projectt... oh yea and this week was vacation but its already friday! it went by so fast. too fast. and tomorrow night i think im going out with molly ann and holly. so that should be fun. ahhh i miss emily though. gr i reallllyyy wish she was still here cuz my life would be 8379874389327498327 x better. but i know ill see her this summer but i realllyyy dont feel like waiting that long. yeaaa so i guess ill go now. im not so sure when the next time ill update.. i guess whenever i feel like it. nfsdjfkjfd bye

i really really like derek... i don't know if i'm supposed to call it love.. because i don't know if im too young to even understand what actual love is... but i guess i can call it love for now.. in that case love rocks...and i love derek

i think i like him... idk everytime i see him or talk to him i get butterflies... but idk if i really like him or if its just.. i dont know.. i dont like this feeling but i really think i like him....ahhuhhhhhhhhhhhhhh what love does to you

[	mood	|	content	]
[	music	|	natalie bedingfield	]

 ughh i cant believe school starts wednesday...atleast the freshman are alone on the first day and then our 2nd day is the rest of the schools first day.. im gonna get soo lost.. and i hate me advisory cause im only friends with like one girl and the rest is just a click of like 8 snobby stuck up ppl..but i do know a lot of ppl in my classes... so thats good... tonight i think im goin to garden city with molly and holly and then to applebees or somethin..ugh and right now i have family over... all the boring ones..from my moms side. and dad just had hip surgery so hes out of work for about a month...ok well i dont feel like writing anymore bye bye

[	mood	|	blah	]
[	music	|	blink 182	]

La la la like woah i dont really write in hurrr very much at all so i will now because im extremely bored  and theres nothing better to do...ummm band started and its pretty fun.. its kinda just a few hours of goofing off but thats good for me and im playing volleyball too.. idk if i made the team though because i totally suck but thats ok i wont really care if i dont make it cause ill be busy with band anyways.. i  kinda dont want to make it.. w.e. im so upset! i miss laguna beach last night because i was at mollys all night and ended up sleeping over and there were lots of ppl and the power went out for like 2 hours...and that was about an hour and a half of patrick singing and playing his guitar which he isnt very good at.. and the frenchies left today...i only spent 3 or 4 days with them but i will miss them.. especially since ill most likely never see them again.. = [ i miss ashley too.. she went away to college in conneticut last week.. and i really miss emily.. hopefully she'll be able to shadow me in school or something the extra week she has off in december... the other night we watched the vmas together on the  phone haha but it definatley isnt the same and our language is really coming along.. haha.. ughh im tired and yay real world comes on tonightt... and then tomorrow ugh i gotta wake up early AGAIN for band then to volleyball...oh yea and then i have the freshman bbq...ugh

ok xo bye bye

[	mood	|	blah	]
[	music	|	sublime- i wanna hear the same song twice	]

Hmmm.. last night i had a summer league game against tollgate.. yea we lost even though they suck worse than us... we didnt have one of r best players so that could explain a lot.. i did good... really good actually, but my dad is way too hard on elise and is like nicoles gonna be a freshman and shes playing better than you! and felt like screaming at him saying that every once and a while people have bad games... but whenever i try to stand up for her he just shuts me down. and im really getting sick of it. sometimes i just want to punch him in the face. you know what im sayin?? yeah u know what im sayin? yea andy milonkis kicks ass and is mad funny. hehe umm today me and elise went to the store with mom while ash worked and got some stuff for this week... yea we're going to new hampshire tomorrow for a week or so.. we'll probably go kayaking again.. i hope so and we're meetin up with my moms friend and her fam. i think the girl is a brat and a very hard to deal with child shes like 15 i thinka nd the son is like 17 and hes another story. yeesh and tonight i think im going to see fantastic four with ann... umm and now i gotta go.. so ill write again in another week...byebeyeebyebyebeybeybe

xoxo Nicoleee

[	mood	|	blah blah	]
[	music	|	sidewalks	]

hmm havent written in here in a while... tonight i had another summer league game... i did good...i guess.. hmm and tomorrow ash is bringin me and elise to scarborough for the day... hopefully the weather will be ok i gotta get tanner..hehe and then friday we're leavin for new hampshire for a week or so.... mmm and im gonna go now because i dont feel like writing anymore and i miss emily sooo much er life isnt veyr fair at all. = (

[	mood	|	life sucks	]
[	music	|	Fall Out Boy-Sophomore Slump Or Comeback Of The Year	]

hmm... its wierd how i stopped using this for a while but now i actually want to again... it makes me think of journaling in mr. maines class. good times... well anyways on wed. the west team lost, but i actually played a good part of the game and did good. then on thurs.. molly came over and we ordered chinese and watched old school ... still wicked funny after watching it like 5 times... she slept over.. and then on friday  we went to providence place.. later on we went to the movies and saw war of the worlds.. it was really good and then i slept over her house afterward.. then today i mostly cleaned my room and im actually getting somewhere for once! yea its amazing. mom dad and elise are coming home from PA tonight...dont feel like writing anymore. bye